Seek The Truth

by Giselle Aguiar, Award-Winning, Christian Author

Jesus said, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me," and "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him." (John 14:2; 3:16-17)

Seek The Truth - by Giselle Aguiar, Award-Winning, Christian Author

Two years ago this week….

This entry is part 3 of 16 in the series Trusting God

Up the Down Escalator

Have you ever tried to go up the down escalator? Think about it.
If you’re going at the same pace, you don’t get anywhere.
If you slow down or stop, it takes you down with it.
If you’re faster, stronger, persistent, focused on going up, you persevere and then you’ll get to the top.

First scenario – You’re in a rut. You try, but you don’t get anywhere. You take 3 steps forward and fall 4 steps back.
Second scenario – You’re tired, worn-out, burned-out, the weight of the world is on your shoulders, one thing after another knocks you down, you give up and you go down.
Third scenario – You focus on the goal, find strength and energy to make it to the top.

My first thought when I woke up the Monday before Thanksgiving 2 years ago was, “I wish I could sleep through this whole week.” Why?
1. I had been unemployed for over two months.
2. I ran out of money the month before and unemployment insurance hadn’t kicked in yet.
3. I was diagnosed with osteoarthritis in my hands and they ached.
4. I had been force-feeding a sick cat for over a week and he didn’t seem to be getting better
5. My so-called boyfriend hadn’t called me in over a month – not even to check up on me after I lost my job.
6. I didn’t have a confirmed invitation for Thanksgiving.
7. I hadn’t heard from any of the hundreds of potential employers to whom I had applied.
8. If I didn’t get a job in three months, I would lose my house.
9. The creditors were calling daily.

Depressed? I didn’t want to end my life, I just wanted to go to sleep and wake up with everything back to “normal”.

In all my 50+ years of living as a single person, I have never been through a trial as bad as this one. I graduated from college in the middle of a recession, but I lived with my parents – no worries. I was in Miami for Hurricane Andrew and spent two weeks with out electricity, it was miserable, but I had a job to go back to. I relocated to Phoenix without having a job, but with my computer skills, I was able to get temporary jobs until I got a permanent position. I could always count on temp jobs to get me through those “between jobs” weeks. Not this time. I haven’t been even able to get temp assignments. There’s just too much competition out there and not enough jobs.

I cried at the littlest thing. I’d be driving and an overwhelming wave of fear would sweep over me and I would start crying. If someone hugged me, I would cry. When I heard that yet another company was laying off thousands of people, I would cry.

My worse-comes-to-worse scenario was moving back with my mother in Puerto Rico. That would mean selling everything, including my car (you can’t drive there) and start from scratch. Besides that, I really disliked living in Puerto Rico. That made me cry.

All I wanted to do was curl up and go to sleep and wake up somewhere over the rainbow.

Well, I did manage to get myself out of bed that Monday morning. I got online and sent out more resumes. Then I got an email confirming the Thanksgiving invitation — cool. That afternoon, a potential employer, with whom I had a phone interview about four weeks before called me to ask if I was still interested in the position. Heck, yeah! He said he had to talk to his partner and he’d get back to me in two days. Three days went by and I still hadn’t heard from him, but my unemployment insurance finally kicked in. All this money just appeared in my account the day before Thanksgiving. Gee — I now had something to be actually thankful for! It was gone by that afternoon.

The Friday after thanksgiving, when other people were shopping, I was driving around with an extremely sick cat looking for a vet who’d put him down and not charge me too much. I ended up selling my guitar to be able to pay the vet. I couldn’t play it anyway with the arthritis.

As a single person — all my life — I’ve been pretty self-sufficient. I didn’t want to burden anyone with my problems. I had no shoulder to cry on. I was wrong. The shoulder was there all the time, but I was too scared, too prideful, too distrusting.

I’m still on that down escalator, but instead of focusing on my problems and my lousy situation, I’m focusing on the goal, looking up instead of down. I’ve learned to trust God and incredibly, He has provided. I won’t go into detail, but believe me, He has.

The Apostle Paul writes in Philippians 4:

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

With thanksgiving. We shouldn’t wait till the 3rd Thursday in November to give thanks, we should live in an attitude of gratitude daily and be thankful for even the little things like a roof over our heads and running water. Ask and you shall receive, but give thanks for everything you’ve got, before you ask for what you need and God will provide!

Happy Thanksgiving and may God’s Grace be with you!

God Bless,
Giselle Aguiar
Soli Deo Gloria
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  • D L McCarragher says:

    Great post Giselle! Thank God He comes in our times of weakness and dispair to "lift us" out of our lathargy into action. David wrote in Psalm 43:5, "Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? For I shall yet praise Him, the help of my countenance and my God."

    Perseverance is the greatest asset when hope is fleeting. One of my favorite verses is Psalm 17:13-14, "I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!"

    So glad to hear that you have had a turn of events for the better, and that God's blessings have indeed "overtaken" you!

    And yes, we should be thankful every day – not just in November!

    Deborah McCarragher

    November 23, 2010 at 12:58 am
  • Eleanor Shepherd says:

    Thank you Giselle for your honesty and your courage in sharing your challenges and the intervention of grace.

    November 23, 2010 at 2:54 am

    That is a wonderful post, Giselle. I know how you felt – just wanting to go to sleep and hope the nightmare is over by the time you wake up. But yes, the Lord is always there and all we need do is call on Him. He has promised to supply all of our needs and it's according to His riches, not our needs. His riches are unlimited. And He also promised that He would not allow us to go through anything that was too hard but would supply the means of getting through, around or over the problem. He is a wonderful Savior indeed. Thanks for sharing your heart.

    November 23, 2010 at 3:30 am

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